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The ART of STORYTELLING
10.30.2011 || 3:23 AM
I'm painting an ornate portrait. Not of you.
What I've been gifted in the form of your most honest & natural self, I'd never embody the skillful will to duplicate.
For, you alone are as perfect a self as one's self can be. Flawed, humanly, to impeccable perfection. Redundance disregarded, I see you in this exact way.
With the typical inward battle I continuously have with myself, I've fought tooth-and-nail to not write of you. No parts, no bits, pieces, or breaths. The story all but wrote itself, honestly; I could in no way deny you. And, after intense bouts with insecurity, unsure disposition, and eventual utter anbandonment of any past reservations, I no longer attempt to -- deny. The reasons are just no longer evident, not real... no longer there. I shouldn't.
I'd rather take in the undertaking. The task, allbeit, of embracing whatever it is you are.
Before I ever request that you change one aspect of this, you, I'll splatter the art of this, YOU, about my canvas. Flailing, flinging, smatter, indulge... in your hues and tints only you may leave upon my thin paper surface. There will be no mistaking my intent to portray nothing less than your imprint upon me; it's all I'll need, after all.
That's all I have to say. My fever has risen with just the mention of said art. This is a story without an ending, I fear -- but I welcome a cliffhanger. My existence was once nothing without definite endings.... I no longer see this as my fate, so long as your essence lays deeply embedded in my brush.
----- TRUTH ----